pure venting
I meant all I said about my ma. But her fucking personality drives me MAD. I was just eating downstairs w my head phones in bc I don't want to feel the weight of her stare burning into me. Anyway there was a little gnat flying around me. It came from the fact that she leaves fruit out until its damn near rotten- in fact arguably rotten, that's how she likes to eat her fruit- fucking rotten. Additionally she likes her meat barely cooked. Its actually quite disgusting. The polar opposite of me.
The reason I bring this up is bc I made a face at the gnat flying around me. She brought up that its probably from the fruit. I mentioned that if we could do whatever needs to be done so flies don't hatch in this house, that would be good- in fact that's what I said verbatim. Immediately she gets on the defensive. Mind you- she tells EVERYONE what to do ALL THE TIME. Its what she does. She's one of the most critical person ever. She talks to people like they are in kindergarten- all the fucking time. Like everyone is just walking through this world lost and the only way they can be found is if she tells them EXACTLY how to act at all times. Its fucking horrible.
The only thing worse than what I just mentioned is that if u even UTTER a SUGGESTION of how to act to her she acts like she's a scared little child and you're a fucking monster who's trying to kill her. She gets this snobby tone of voice which- I swear to god- if someone came to me and gave me the option I'd take 10 years off of my life if it meant I would never have to hear that tone of voice again. I think that's it. In fact I'm sure of it- the voice is what has made me this upset. Not what she said- even though it was dismissive as hell. Its the voice. She said "well I don't know what to tell you". That's what she said. Here's what I heard- you're beneath me and overreacting and I've done absolutely nothing wrong and you're a piece of shit if u think I have. Well its slight, but I do think its an error in judgment to leave out fruit until its rotten so there are flies hatching in this house. Its utterly disgusting. So I guess I'm the piece of shit.
Hence this entire entry.
The reason I bring this up is bc I made a face at the gnat flying around me. She brought up that its probably from the fruit. I mentioned that if we could do whatever needs to be done so flies don't hatch in this house, that would be good- in fact that's what I said verbatim. Immediately she gets on the defensive. Mind you- she tells EVERYONE what to do ALL THE TIME. Its what she does. She's one of the most critical person ever. She talks to people like they are in kindergarten- all the fucking time. Like everyone is just walking through this world lost and the only way they can be found is if she tells them EXACTLY how to act at all times. Its fucking horrible.
The only thing worse than what I just mentioned is that if u even UTTER a SUGGESTION of how to act to her she acts like she's a scared little child and you're a fucking monster who's trying to kill her. She gets this snobby tone of voice which- I swear to god- if someone came to me and gave me the option I'd take 10 years off of my life if it meant I would never have to hear that tone of voice again. I think that's it. In fact I'm sure of it- the voice is what has made me this upset. Not what she said- even though it was dismissive as hell. Its the voice. She said "well I don't know what to tell you". That's what she said. Here's what I heard- you're beneath me and overreacting and I've done absolutely nothing wrong and you're a piece of shit if u think I have. Well its slight, but I do think its an error in judgment to leave out fruit until its rotten so there are flies hatching in this house. Its utterly disgusting. So I guess I'm the piece of shit.
Hence this entire entry.
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