Pumpkin

Well I need to come on here more but any way something happen today that made me want to write. A long time friend called me to discuss why we are not talking anymore. To sum up why - I lost my job in Dec 2008, the same job I help her get and she never called or came by to see me. I felt like shit and  my world as I knew it has just stopped and she never thought to call. Our history is not long but  it's enough that I would've  called/ checked on her. I'm the sort of person that will speak my mind but I didn't because I didn't think I should'nt have to in this case. Her defense is/was that she also was going through something at the time. OH yeah isn't everyone?? I'm not asking for her life but a phone call. And the fucked up part is that she drives pass my house everyday from work. LMAO!!!!! I have a best friend and she and I are always "going through something" but manage to talk or send a text of support. I was looking for compassion, is that too much to ask for? I need a shoulder tho cry on and some to tell me that everything will be ok. She and I had s special relationship. And besides my BF, I just knew that she would be ther for me like me with her. Oh And let me add 3weeeks after I got FIRED, not laid off, she texts me and ask for 400$. This is after not hearing from her, WOW the balls on some people. I didn't have it and if I did I would've said no. At that time I was lost, scared and confused. She says that I told people about the money thing, yeah I did I told my BF, shit I tell  BF everything. I did have one secret but I eventually told her that ( mindblower!) and she understood and moved on. In this life you only get a few real friends and you got to be careful who you let in your "world". And I just knew that she was one of those real friends, besides that other shit. I don't include that. She was my "ride or die bitch"I didn't even get my first unemployment check until the next month. Oh and did I mention that I'm divorced w/ three children. BALLS!!! I change my feeling chart to Good but this episode is really weighing heavy  on my mind/heart. I miss her. In the course of a year and1/2 I lost my husband( good), my job( bad) and a good friend ( bad). What a shitty yearThe only blessing is that noone is deceased. pray for me God bless.