I really feel like shit today. Had a very bad night last night. That stupid girl came here again last night. I don't have a peephole on my door, so I opened it to see who was there. Then she just barges in and starts talking nonsense. I told her to get out, but then she starts with some shit that I owe money. She started kicking stuff around, and then picked up one of my hammers. I got scared that she was going to hit me, so I grabbed her and through her on the couch and grabbed the hammer. Fuck, she was like a guy fighting. pretty damned strong for a girl. We were wrestling all over the place. I was yelling for Carlo's downstairs to help me. She grabbed my wallet and got the money out. That wasn't happening. i had her by the hair trying to get my money back. She got the door open and tried getting out. We kept fighting in the hall. By this time Dan and Carlo's were in the hall downstairs. I still had the hammer in my hand, and boy did I want to hit her with it, but I know I would go to jail. I yelled for Carlo's to help me, but they didn't. They were scared to get involved or something. Bunch of assholes. They just stood there watching. They did call the police for me. We were at the top of the stairs still fighting. I was really getting tired, so I through her down the stairs. i went with her, and we kept fighting. She was trying to make it to the door to take off with my money, but I wasn't letting that happen. When she realized she wasn't going anywhere and the cops were on their way, then she tried smatening up. She gave me back the money. All except twenty bucks. The cops came finally. I was so happy to see them. Fuck was I tired. i was sweating buckets. I just told the police that we were fighting because she wouldn't leave my place. I knew they were just going to think that it was a hooker and John thing, and yup. That's what they said. Nobody was charged or anything. Today I feel really disgusted about everything. I feel kinda scared too, because these kind of people have friends on the street, and that could be a later issue. I'm disgusted that Carlo's and Dan did nothing to help. Where I came from, you helped out. I feel almost like crying. I really don't like violence, and it freaks me out a lot. I need to really look into moveing out of here. I don't want this crap in my life. It's the first time I had a problem here, but this downtown area is starting to worry me. A lot of people do drugs, and you just never know if something like this will happen. I just want a peacefull life, and I don't seem to be finding it here. God please help. My life just seems to be a constant struggle. Get me out of here.