Pride Pill

For some reason I'm not quite sure of, from a younge age I've always looked at pride as a sin. Not that I'm very humble myself ironically.

But I realize this is a mistake! Pride is a powerful tool. Pride taps the very source of your personhood. Your self image and identity. And even though it's just an EGO, its still very much there and close to your very core. The things that we consider as "ourselves" or being a part of "ourselves" we hold very dear and nuture and protect and grow. So why let your ego run amock with you without your permission? Rather take charge of it and work with it.

I take pride in the fact that I can figure things out... eventually. I take pride in the fact that I'm a good person. I take pride in the fact that I CHOSE not to kill myself. I take pride in the fact that I'm no longer an alcoholic or drug addict. I take pride in the fact that I still love my parents and siblings inspite of betrayal and abandonment. I take pride in the fact that my love is not waxed cold. I take pride in the fact that I affirm that I still believe in God, somehow, and inspite of ridicule from athiests. I take pride in the fact that I haven't given up or resigned from life inspite of knowing how fragile this body is. I take pride in the fact, like a samurai warrior, that my life may be snuffed out at any moment and even violently, but my will to live remains and grows stronger. I take pride in the fact that although I'm scared of allot of things, I'm not afraid of being afraid. I take pride in the fact that I know the goal of life is love. I take pride in this journal entry. This is who I am, for now, and I have no problem with it.