pressure building up, having a hard time

I guess if I ask me what I should do about this I might as well take a walk or do something physical.

I came home today after work and parked myself on the couch. I thought about being social - well

how I am not very social at all. I skipped out on my drawing class that is held on Saturday mornings.

I go to my parents' house every Sunday. That is my one day of socializing every week. The rest of the days

I busy myself with work in the morning and then errands and busy work here at the apartment.

I thought what to do with myself as one day it will be 'just me.' I thought about attaching myself to a church -

it's kind of a controlling part of myself - but that might not be the way for me. I just watched a great documentary

on BBC about the Royal Academy of Art. It put me in touch with my art side of me. I graduated with a degree in Fine Art. Anyways, pressure is building up in my head and I don't know what to do. I hate that I can't just exist - it seems like I am always fighting something. I am tired, concerned and distracted.