Pressure.

This is tireing me out all the time. I take these pills that have nothing to do with depression and a side effect is that it effects my depression. It makes me more depressed than I usually am and no one gives a shit about it. People just laugh and go on their way and don't fuckin understand. I'm already severely depressed and I try getting better with it everyday. I'm doing this all by myself. Trying to change how I think and my whole life style. That's almost impossible for me because I don't adapt to changing myself that well or that fast. It takes me months and sometimes years to get me to change a small part of something about myself.
I have a pressure in my head right now. It doesn't hurt much and it's very very anoying. This is why I don't take pills that I'm supposed to take. None of my medication has anything to do with depression. They just effect it sometimes.
I feel like I'm in a prison all the time. Like I'm a caged animal trying to desprately escape from everything all the time. In this small cage with no room to walk around or be happy. Hitting itself against the bars of the cage trying to get out. But, just gets more angry and sad the more it does it.