premonition

im bothered. i had a dream or vision that my h was in my pastors office having sex w/her. it was disturbing, but i knew it was not true. i told my h about it.  since it nvr occurred 2 me 2 thnk  he was cheatn.  so i figured it was just my mind playn tricks on me.  i cldnt figure what it cld mean.  damn i fl done 4 ignoring the signs. of course i tld him and again he sd nothing.  and continued 2 decieve me.  i have bn a very like naked person.  i walk around the house half naked all the time.  its just natural 4 me. but now i fl more like im livn w/a roomate or something.  rather than ahusband.  i fl exposed b/c of what hes done and hidden himself from me.  so i dont fl as comfortable naked now.  so ive bn covering up.  i actually wore pajams 2 bed.  & went into the bathroom 2 change my top.  i was in the broom w/him in my panties and i was very aware that i had on my panties & he doesnt deserve 2 c me any more exposed. he was disappionted that im taking out my dreads. b/c he liked them.  its funny how he cares now.