prayer: on seeing 2 sides to ourselves

I woke up late this morning..710am! 

I was so relaxed when I got up - not a hard start - and then went

about the business of starting the day. I cleaned the kitty litter,

threw my old clothes in the wash- brushed my teeth and hopped in the shower.

I ate some cheerios - and was all dressed and done with washing the dishes

and I decided to give myself a Labor Day splurge to get a coffee..

I won't get another until pay day.

The title of this post comes down to what happened on the drive over

to the coffee shop...I have been doing really well lately I believe - and my mind was bright and alert

this morning, while driving...and then for some reason I saw an obnoxious, petty side to myself.

I felt like... it was the real me...and I felt the impulse of not being able to accept that....

But I got my coffee and then came home...Was sitting here at the laptop at the kitchen counter

and read a post that was questioning self value in the face of flaws. Just thinking

on that post - slowly I started to remember different cases where many of my friends have 

questioned themselves when things like that have come up... It was a wonderful post to read- right

at the nic of time...I sent a prayer upward for the strength and compassion to accept myself

and see the 2 sides to the 'selves that we have'...I thought about the intellectual and the spiritual...

and now I am just getting on with my day.. Blue is super bored so I am entertaining him.

Finishing the last of my coffee and I'll make lunch soon.

I hope you guys are having a good Labor Day! Sending prayers of peace, and self acceptance

and spiritual blessings.

Mark