This is definitely a "poor me" day - not sure why exactly. The fact that I have not been able to get a job in almost a year is not helping my self esteem, and the week long rain is depressing. Also I realize that this is July and at the end of the month (24th) I've got to make it through our wedding anniversary which would have been 16 years. I'm feeling tired and old; I am just so sick of trying to cope with everything alone. I know that my problems are nothing compared to some widows/widowers out there, and I know I will feel better - probably tomorrow, but today I am just so SAD!