Poisen
You took me ,filled me with poisenYou broke medropped me and shattered my soulNow its going to take a hell of a long time to heal.You took me,you broke me,you hurt meYou made me think it was my fault that I was a sex toy for your own personal pleasure.You took me and molded me into something I wasn't meant to be.You did things that I wasn't meant to experience with you I was "the other woman" to your wifeI was the smell on your cloths your wife smelledI wished to God He would take me in the middle of the night while you were sleeping next to me.My blade was my best friend back then ,my comfort when you were aroundI still have many mini flashbacks of you,you and your handsSmell of whisky and black and milds and old spice make me remember you.You ruined many holidays and my birthday for mei gave you my power ,now I want it back. Im afraid to go back to Port Aransas now,because its like walking down"Memory Lane" with my hand in yours.Every time I think of you I want to scrub myself clean,but I never will,will I?Shame comes when i speak your nameIt shouldnt be my shame, now should it?I cant seem to trust anyone nowI cant let goI cant let go of the poisen that you poured in me.When will you finally go away,out of mind?
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Very powerful and well written. Sorry you are left with so much pain.
Im very sorry that you are left with so much pain. You are amazing wih your poems. I love to read them. hopefully some day you will be able to heal and not be in so much pain. Do you have a good support system? HUGS Annalee
I hate to see the pain you\'re in. I have a person in my life that I feel the same way about - it\'s like I\'ve become obsessed with this man and he\'s low down - he\'s just pure crap. You\'re so young - you\'ll find the right person. I\'ve been listening to an \"old\" song (1970\'s) by the group Rose Royce called \"You\'ve Abandoned Me - Love Don\'t Live Here Anymore\". If you get a chance to YouTube that song then check it out. And keep writing your poems - it helps to heal when you write (but I think you realize that).
Oh, wait. You\'re married now - is that right? So, is this poem about someone who you\'re still a bit attached to (emotionally)? If THAT is this case then I REALLY know what you\'re talking about! I was married for 10 years and this particular \"other\" man was still in my life and I\'ve been divorced for nearly 10 years. Therefore, over (WAY OVER) 20 years have been WASTED on this \"other\" man. Damn, I need you to write a poem for ME! Now I\'m really depressed! God, why have I wasted ALL this time??? Look this man up on YouTube and then ask me \"WHY\"????? His name is Corey Koepsel. Just look his ass up and tell me WHY???????????????????????? I\'m so ashamed of myself. Man, your poem has hit me in a soft, raw spot!
wow very powerful and detailed, I do not know how you handled writing it. I have been having nightmares since I wrote mine, and I surely hope you do not. That is so powerful, I just cannot tell you enought. OMG how did you write that:? Are you havingf nightmares over it. or have you slept yet. I surely pray you do not. I know htat it had to be really hard to write. God Bless you and hang in there baby girl. Lots of Love, Kacey
Very Very Very GOOD! You went into every detail you could think of. It is this kind of writing that will make you well, hon. Take some time, especially after a treatment session and write again as soon as you are able to. I love the part where you say you are going to take your power back, thats the spriit! These horrible things happened to you a long time ago and you have been unable to address them. Now you are moving on. Look how far you have come. When those flashbacks come, just tell yourself, I have the power now. And the son of a bitch can\'t hurt me anymore. Change your thinking like you do in the poem. Great work. I am proud of you . Lots of healing love sent your way dear.
You know, you can google someone\'s name and it pops up from here - the things we\'ve written! If we\'ve written someone\'s name (such as first and last name) then it comes right up! And I wrote that message about Corey Koepsel and I was having a really bad day and I regret writing that message so I have to say I\'m so sorry about writing that about him.