Poisen

You took me ,filled me with poisenYou broke medropped me and shattered my soulNow its going to take a hell of a long time to heal.You took me,you broke me,you hurt meYou made me think it was my fault that I was a sex toy for your own personal pleasure.You took me and molded me into something I wasn't meant to be.You did things that I wasn't meant to experience with you I was "the other woman" to your wifeI was the smell on your cloths your wife smelledI wished to God He would take me in the middle of the night while you were sleeping next to me.My blade was my best friend back then ,my comfort when you were aroundI still have many mini flashbacks of you,you and your handsSmell of whisky and black and milds and old spice make me remember you.You ruined many holidays and my birthday for mei gave you my power ,now I want it back. Im afraid to go back to Port Aransas now,because its like walking down"Memory Lane" with my hand in yours.Every time I think of you I want to scrub myself clean,but I never will,will I?Shame comes when i speak your nameIt shouldnt be my shame, now should it?I cant seem to trust anyone nowI cant let goI cant let go of the poisen that you poured in me.When will you finally go away,out of mind?