Please stop!!

when will it end? WHEN? I mean really? My wife is bed ridden, we already were having marital issues. They have gotten worse. I am forced into filing for bankruptcy, I can't see how we can continue paying the medical bills AND the mortgage. My car's clutch master cylinder went out, the starter went out, and the alternator went out.... all this week!!!!
 
I feel myself going so numb. just so numb. I really do wish that all four of my tires would just blow out at the same time while i was driving over the Mississippi River Bridge. At least that way i could die and no one would be at fault. No one could hold blame. It would just be an accident, and i could finally get some peace.