please call

I think my phone is broken. It never rings. It has been 69 days since her passing. My family doesn’t seem to call, just calling for the sake of calling. Seems like someone in my family would call and simply ask how I was doing. I do get calls from the girls but I must be forever strong for them. First ------ and then her Mom, I feel so disconnected from everyone.
-------- posted this on facebook. It Is very good. I miss having someone that cares about what I did yesterday, what I'm doing right now, and what I'm going to do tomorrow
It is not possible to avoid being alone and when I am alone, I cry. Being alone has nothing to do with how many people you have around you.
Keeping busy is only a mask to distract away the hurt. Keeping busy is not healing.
I thought I would simply adjust to a new way of life. What was I thinking? To be alone is so much harder than I ever imagined it would be. This should be getting easier, it is not, it is getting harder.
One beer a night really does help me calm down