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I am taking well over the dose of Xanax as I should. I want to get out of here. I dont want to do this anymore. Xanax releives me from the resraints of life and the stresses of it. It provides me enought to enter my own world and not have to bothered by realy world stresses. I am depressed. I am losing friends both close and far and I dont know what to do. I have isolated myself so so greatly that I no longer can pick up the phone and call a friend I may be able to call Katie Thomas but at this point I am not sure how she feels towards me. This is what also destroys me is the fact that everyone expects me to call them when they never call me. When Rachael Lacy was trying to justitfy her hatred for me she told me that I had not called her, however, she never called me either. She also blamed me for her and her boyfriends break up, by calling the police of a domestic distubance. I suppose that Rachael over damatises situations and then she gets into trouble. I am not going to write on here any more because people are too judgemenal.
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Hi friend.
I think that you should take that chance and call somebody. They may be waiting for your call so that they can give you that support that you need at this time.
Take care not to overdo it with the meds.
take care my fiend - I am thinking of you.
Whether here or anywhere else u will always find very judgemental people. Yet remember when they do that that the rule is \"u will b judged as u jdge others.\" I believe writing the journal entries is very helpful. I\'m not n 2 writing n a paper journal b/c I don\'t want 2 take a chance n any 1 n my immediate circle 2 stumble upon my most intimate thoughts. I believe that would b the worst case of judgement. Do u dose yourself w/ your above normal Xanax dose? I can understand your desire 2 escape. I cut 2 escape but now I\'m afraid some of the cuts could b getting infected. But how do u explain that 2 a Dr w/o them thinking your crazy? Hope things get better 4 u. If those around u r truly your friends then they might say that they have missed talking 2 u but then they should express how glad they r 2 hear frim u now.