personal experiences

I am writing this so I can vent out how I feel about my online experiences. I am 17 and have been sexually harassed by someone on KIK for 1 month maybe longer than that. It started when I found a person Sharron on KIK. we talked for awhile and I told him about my boyfriend. He didn't like my boyfriend and my boyfriend didn't really trust him. I finally got my boyfriend to agree to talk to him. When I went to Sharron and explained to him my boyfriend wanted to talk to him and he got pissed off at me. He then demanded I send him a picture of my breasts. I told him no but he found out how much I care about my boyfriend and he said to me if I didn't do what he said he would hurt my boyfriend. I got scared and didn't want him to hurt my boyfriend because he is my best friend so I sent the picture to him. but that wasn't enough for him so he continued to threaten me if I didn't send he'd hurt my boyfriend. He then decided that he would take the pictures of me and send them to others if I didn't send him more pictures. He kept me up till 12:00 in the morning every night sending him pictures. (The pictures got worse and worse with every day I dealt with it)  I was surprised I still had any energy left in me during the day. As every day went by I felt more and more awful about myself and thought I deserved what he did and that it was my fault (I still do). Finally a week after this started happening I log onto KIK and see I have 2 msg's from people I don't know. I asked them how they got my username and they said Sharron. They laughed at me and said she likes to show pictures of herself. They then proceeded to call me a slut. I felt worse and worse every time I had to send him pictures. The only reason I did was to keep him from hurting my boyfriend. One day during this time he started getting me to role play with him. I told him I didn't want to but again he threatened my boyfriend. The scenes we role played were of him forcing me to have sexual intercourse with him. Even though it didn't really happen to me in real life every time he sent a msg in the role play I felt like it was happening to me in real life. Finally a month and a half (I think. I don't know how long he tortured me. I lost track) he told me that he was bored of bullying me. I felt like it was a gift from God hearing that. Even though he was out of my life I had nightmares (still do) about him finding me in my house and raping me while i'm asleep. I have major self confidence and self worth issues too. I can't sleep either. I look around my room at night and I continue to think he's in my room or watching me. There's not a day that goes by that thinks I should've been smarter and ignored him. but I didn't and I have to accept and live with that.   If you read this PLEASE DON'T TELL A-N-Y-O-N-E about this. I'm entrusting you to read this for your eyes only. Please leave comments. It'd mean a lot to me.