personal confession space

just came in from a walk. it felt great to be in the outdoors after the rain.

it's sunny clear and windy, with puddles reflecting the bright light. Everything

got a good wash down from the torrents of rain we received.

I just feel grateful. 

Sometimes the joy is so much I feel like my head will come off. If I don't keep 

a lid on things, I fear that I will become reactionary and fall off track - and just be

in the soup..I feel grateful because today feels purposeful - and I feel like 

I am balanced. The tension is there - but I kind of know what I have to do.

There is control and some structure to the wide open space of my mind and the world.

I know what my ideals are and I feel like I can continue, one step at a time with some

sense of ownership. I can own this and now the proof is if I make something out of it!