peeking out, then back to bed. xoxo
the best thing about a bad morning? afternoon has the potential to get better!
the headache pressure continues - i had a crazy dream. at some kind of indoor flea market. i had a receipt & a copy of my order. ready to pick up. two guys took my paperwork and refused to talk to me. they just stared at me with crossed arms. i felt increasingly upset, mystified by the situation and frustrated.
i had paid $66.37 for my order and was now demanding a refund. this giant rent-a-cop appeared.......he had to have been at least ten feet tall. he walked up, put his hand on my head and said "little squirts gotsta be quiet. so shaddup!" i was looking around for my daughter, in the dream we were both younger.......i started to feel scared. woke up and my brain was pounding. got up and put cool water on my face......not enough, got in the shower and braved it through chilly water for a few seconds........and then turned the warm water back up to relieve the insanity of cool water on parts shouting for heated water.
if the above paragraph makes little sense don't feel alone, i got brain fog like nobody's business.
- called the doc's office, after two calls still hadn't received lab results, so today i tried again. they are supposed to either mail or scan the labs and get them to me. they are so goofed up in that office. called on the 5th for results. again on the 11th.........it is now what? the 14th?
- next, i called the other potentially new doctor.........and i don't know..........frustrated that no one had called me back since the 5th. i don't know if it was me, a question of semantics or if the woman i was talking to is just not good with patient communication........but i ended up in tears, dissolved into a puddle like a baby. between pain & frustration trying to ask some simple basic questions - felt like i was getting a "stuffy report from some medical encyclopedia robotica" .......not sure what happened to tell you the truth. (do know this much, a pleasant kind person makes 1,000 % difference in the front office of any business.)
ended up with an appt for the middle of january. gonna have a sit down meeting with the doc and see how it goes. today was apparently not a great day for me to talk out loud.........and unfortunately the lady i talked to at first was impatient, rude and stiff. not a very auspicious situation i admit........but my own doc's office can't manage a return call with lab results info in a timely manner so I gotta at least try to find a better place for care........right????
my head hurts.........my neck and shoulders ache, got a sore throat, ears hurt..........body hurts........but I am clean and shiny. have a load of laundry going. i got through the morning pain, the stupid dream, the shower, got fresh jammies on.................i'm not flying ......but i am slowly steadily willing myself to some semblance of life.
it is hard to function on days like this............i know i have a warm cozy bed. i know i have much to be thankful for.................right now i want to feel less isolated. i wanna be bright and cheerful and lit up like a pretty little candle, but i feel too wonky to strike the match in order to light the flame. maybe tomorrow? not good to touch matches when you're in wonkyland.
today we'll use a flashlight! safer, smarter, good enough. dunno. i want to eat, but i'm afraid to.......having tummy issues. guess it's a rice cake/crackers kind of day.
reading is out, tv on low is doable maybe...........tv is an ok substitute for peoples. tv doesn't hold your hand, make eye contact.......or listen. but it does distract, soothe and take your mind off of problems......and that is good therapy too.
fed the kitties - got them fresh water............that was good! feel like i'm about to cry again.........this tells me the pain is UP and i gotta go back to bed.
not walking too bad........that's good right? the cane helps and the bed is only 2.5 rooms from here.......love, wonky sparrow.
p.s. the other night when the wind was up, i did manage to get the patio umbrella out of the stand, drag it into the garage and not die. that was crazy. a little sparrow can save the day sometimes, its hard but not impossible. still practicing the art of wishful thinking aka levitation, but so far still not happening......bed. go. get in it. hush. the momma in this house is kind of bossy, yet well meaning and kind.......she knows that the little bird in me is feeling pretty lost today.
the hawks soaring yesterday was so special..........................thanks for your shared memories and encouragement.........love love love you!
the headache pressure continues - i had a crazy dream. at some kind of indoor flea market. i had a receipt & a copy of my order. ready to pick up. two guys took my paperwork and refused to talk to me. they just stared at me with crossed arms. i felt increasingly upset, mystified by the situation and frustrated.
i had paid $66.37 for my order and was now demanding a refund. this giant rent-a-cop appeared.......he had to have been at least ten feet tall. he walked up, put his hand on my head and said "little squirts gotsta be quiet. so shaddup!" i was looking around for my daughter, in the dream we were both younger.......i started to feel scared. woke up and my brain was pounding. got up and put cool water on my face......not enough, got in the shower and braved it through chilly water for a few seconds........and then turned the warm water back up to relieve the insanity of cool water on parts shouting for heated water.
if the above paragraph makes little sense don't feel alone, i got brain fog like nobody's business.
- called the doc's office, after two calls still hadn't received lab results, so today i tried again. they are supposed to either mail or scan the labs and get them to me. they are so goofed up in that office. called on the 5th for results. again on the 11th.........it is now what? the 14th?
- next, i called the other potentially new doctor.........and i don't know..........frustrated that no one had called me back since the 5th. i don't know if it was me, a question of semantics or if the woman i was talking to is just not good with patient communication........but i ended up in tears, dissolved into a puddle like a baby. between pain & frustration trying to ask some simple basic questions - felt like i was getting a "stuffy report from some medical encyclopedia robotica" .......not sure what happened to tell you the truth. (do know this much, a pleasant kind person makes 1,000 % difference in the front office of any business.)
ended up with an appt for the middle of january. gonna have a sit down meeting with the doc and see how it goes. today was apparently not a great day for me to talk out loud.........and unfortunately the lady i talked to at first was impatient, rude and stiff. not a very auspicious situation i admit........but my own doc's office can't manage a return call with lab results info in a timely manner so I gotta at least try to find a better place for care........right????
my head hurts.........my neck and shoulders ache, got a sore throat, ears hurt..........body hurts........but I am clean and shiny. have a load of laundry going. i got through the morning pain, the stupid dream, the shower, got fresh jammies on.................i'm not flying ......but i am slowly steadily willing myself to some semblance of life.
it is hard to function on days like this............i know i have a warm cozy bed. i know i have much to be thankful for.................right now i want to feel less isolated. i wanna be bright and cheerful and lit up like a pretty little candle, but i feel too wonky to strike the match in order to light the flame. maybe tomorrow? not good to touch matches when you're in wonkyland.
today we'll use a flashlight! safer, smarter, good enough. dunno. i want to eat, but i'm afraid to.......having tummy issues. guess it's a rice cake/crackers kind of day.
reading is out, tv on low is doable maybe...........tv is an ok substitute for peoples. tv doesn't hold your hand, make eye contact.......or listen. but it does distract, soothe and take your mind off of problems......and that is good therapy too.
fed the kitties - got them fresh water............that was good! feel like i'm about to cry again.........this tells me the pain is UP and i gotta go back to bed.
not walking too bad........that's good right? the cane helps and the bed is only 2.5 rooms from here.......love, wonky sparrow.
p.s. the other night when the wind was up, i did manage to get the patio umbrella out of the stand, drag it into the garage and not die. that was crazy. a little sparrow can save the day sometimes, its hard but not impossible. still practicing the art of wishful thinking aka levitation, but so far still not happening......bed. go. get in it. hush. the momma in this house is kind of bossy, yet well meaning and kind.......she knows that the little bird in me is feeling pretty lost today.
the hawks soaring yesterday was so special..........................thanks for your shared memories and encouragement.........love love love you!
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Restnthose wings, and I think we have the same doc.... OMG, one more reschedule and I surrender! i too a, weary, so wonky sparrow come nest in my big old lion mane and we can bask in a sunny spot....
With that happening at the Dr\'s no wonder u had that dream! Get some rest dear and try not to stress, the results usually say nothing anyway. You take care of you. A big hug from me. Marlene
Praying for you sweetie little Sparrow. Hope your wings can soar soon. It\'s not fun having to be grounded. No flights out today. Get comfy in your nice warm bed. Your furry friends will keep you company. The weather change doesn\'t help with our aches...that\'s for sure.
Don\'t let those nasty girls in the front office get to you. They aren\'t upset over it. So don\'t let them get to you. Tomorrow is another day. I know it\'s just aggravating!!! We get so scared & worry our heads off.
I journaled yesterday...when you are feeling better you can read it. Love you sweet friend. I\'m here, listening...I understand. Xoxo
oh God! Talk about brain fog....I read that bit about your doctor\'s appointment as \"?...middle, of the century.\". The way things go with doctors lately, it MIGHT have been the next century!!
Sorry you\'ve had some troubled times with docs and phone people. People can be unbelievable on the phone can\'t they?! Brain fog can be ... wait ... totally fogged on what I was going to type LOL. love you, m
Gentle Hugs for your Serce...your dealings with pain,brain fog,rude and insensitive phone people,And bringing that Umbrella in from the storm is amazing and full of Heart & Soul. Sometimes dreams are just the brains way of working off steam/energy (just my opinion) I hope that your resting comfortably and that the kitties are there with you keeping watch over mamma. Hope that you hear about your lab tests soon. and greenies