Part 2. It dissapeared as soon as i was done writing it

I just wrote out a long draining depressing post that disappeared as I was about to write it.
Telling my story just gets me totally depressed. And now, that post is gone so I'll have to rewrite it, which will just do wonders to my now totally depressed moon, and pissed bc I had to live thru it again.
I am so far beyond depressed, I am happy that I don't allow guns in my house