Part 3

There's actually another problem on top of all this.
On my certification training, I'm far behind...keeping my morale up is definitely having a lot to with it.  At this point, I know I'm definitely not going to be fully ready to take the test before the fall semester starts.  So now there's another problem: Either just settle for reading the rest at this point and hope that it sticks (which is probably what I'm going to try to do), or concede that this is simply not meant to be without driving myself nuts during the fall.
I should have seen this coming, given that I have major confidence and self-esteem problems.  But in my usual lack of wisdom, I didn't...and now I really don't like what I've left myself with, it basically has me to the point of kicking myself.