Part 2

I'm back from my doctor's appointment now.  He did agree that I should back on citalopram, it looks like 20mg once a day.  Really not sure how long I'm going to need it for.
This isn't the best out available and I know it...but I also already knew as far counseling options go I'm already handcuffed.  So I have to go with the next best thing: go on the medication for however long it takes (and hopefully then wean myself off slowly, although my understanding is it's not an addictive medication) and talk out how I feel here when I can.
It does feel uncomfortable attempting it this way because in my heart in a couple of weeks that I won't be on here as often as I feel I need to.