papers....

oh gosh..i hope this all works out..i hope the papers get to him the way i want..i hope i dont have to try for some extension that i dont want..
i have L going to try in the morning and i hope she's successful.  i'm anxious always fn anxious..one day it will elave me..one day..
but when?  
i can't beleive all this shit..i hafta go to court, i hve to hear his name, deal with this stuff and he jsut walks away..free and clear..not a care in the world..la de lda de da..
fuckin around, drinking and partying, using his charms on someone else..
all i wanted ws for everything to work out ok, to be healthy and enjoy each other...taht sucks..oh well..i guess movin on..i'm remembering that i'm still pretty, i have a lot to ffer, im going to just enjoy myself and be happy :)
i'm not going to bother concerning myself with his shitty behaviour.