pain vent from a baby bird
we know pain. ........sigh......intolerance to heat time already? earth to calendar month.....it's March. Chill.........no wise guy, not antartic chill, just keep it comfy.......think just right.....not too hot, not too cold.......please use this suggestion for every part of the world......dialing in weather requests now......ha ha. how will that work out do ya think?
got up ok, not terrible, left arm is not listening to me, but it is SPEAKING to my body. arm pain will not stay in my room, it follows me everywhere. back warns do not sit here long........makes me sad. this rolling chair is so soft, right now it is not working.......body thinks this chair might as well be a cement bleacher ......pain is ramped up. .........wish you could see all the green.......so many shades, so much growing......happy birds, bruce thinks i should get flowering baskets......fine, who's gonna water them? not to be rude, lazy or indifferent, but WHO will do it?
unwrapping, then dragging the hose over the porch rail and down along the porch would require strength and energy. i'm out, can't hold that political office, can't win the votes or confidence of hearty plants in need of water.......they deserve it to thrive. i don't think bruce believes me.....my kitchen window garden is doing well, it is teensy, but happy........the leaves are climbing and reaching for the sun.
neck is swollen.....yeah, you know.....tender glands. limited turning radius.....turn to the right, feels like a steel band strung tightly.......WARNING<GO NO FURTHER<GO BACK YOU MORON. So I do......turn left to look out window, feel the tightly strung band on this side warning me to stop, do not cross go, do not collect $200.....no kid, you can't make it to jail in this monopoly game. wait, sit, hush..........the green soothes me......and the birds sound so sweet.
repetitive motion daily plus injury over the course of a lifetime......living has pros and cons huh folks. if i hadn't fallen as a skater, a ball player, been hit by a truck, thrown out of a vehicle, etc.......you know life stunts.......duh, and then all those years working.....picking up endless ringing phone lines and answering hundreds of daily e-mails......WHAT was i thinking? oh yeah, money pays bills.....raise small fry to taller heights......til they can leave nest.
previously torn left rotator cuff did not heal well................WOW, red cardinal sitting on a rung of a patio chair.....so beautiful.......Lord, thank you........this regal vibrantly plumed bird is taking a walk/flit/stroll across the patio........distract this kid from the pain.........yup, it's good......it's so good to stop the mind and see the view..........to absorb the wonder and beauty ---- drink it all in.
pain is right here, it is not all of me. i know we all......each of us have struggles. pain, sleep issues, how to get up and out and go and do........i'm an infant .......in my own space, doing little.........a baby sparrow. wow, put a baby bonnet on me and call me self absorbed........yup. pain is right here. knock knock joke. knock knock. .......who's there? do we..........do we who? do we get a day off from this pain? do we? i vote yes.......i vote yes, please......w/cream & sugar on top.
a pain vent.....baby sparrow, you have more in you than this. i promise you do......maybe not today, but it is in you to feel the joy......to embrace peace. to reach out and to hang in there.......you are capable, you have God with you.......look at the long streaks of sunlight...the earth is radiant, glowing...rays of sunshine across the back yard.......how beautiful it is.....see, you CAN see.......so look child, drink it in.......pray and ........ baby girl go back to bed now. sleep.
got up ok, not terrible, left arm is not listening to me, but it is SPEAKING to my body. arm pain will not stay in my room, it follows me everywhere. back warns do not sit here long........makes me sad. this rolling chair is so soft, right now it is not working.......body thinks this chair might as well be a cement bleacher ......pain is ramped up. .........wish you could see all the green.......so many shades, so much growing......happy birds, bruce thinks i should get flowering baskets......fine, who's gonna water them? not to be rude, lazy or indifferent, but WHO will do it?
unwrapping, then dragging the hose over the porch rail and down along the porch would require strength and energy. i'm out, can't hold that political office, can't win the votes or confidence of hearty plants in need of water.......they deserve it to thrive. i don't think bruce believes me.....my kitchen window garden is doing well, it is teensy, but happy........the leaves are climbing and reaching for the sun.
neck is swollen.....yeah, you know.....tender glands. limited turning radius.....turn to the right, feels like a steel band strung tightly.......WARNING<GO NO FURTHER<GO BACK YOU MORON. So I do......turn left to look out window, feel the tightly strung band on this side warning me to stop, do not cross go, do not collect $200.....no kid, you can't make it to jail in this monopoly game. wait, sit, hush..........the green soothes me......and the birds sound so sweet.
repetitive motion daily plus injury over the course of a lifetime......living has pros and cons huh folks. if i hadn't fallen as a skater, a ball player, been hit by a truck, thrown out of a vehicle, etc.......you know life stunts.......duh, and then all those years working.....picking up endless ringing phone lines and answering hundreds of daily e-mails......WHAT was i thinking? oh yeah, money pays bills.....raise small fry to taller heights......til they can leave nest.
previously torn left rotator cuff did not heal well................WOW, red cardinal sitting on a rung of a patio chair.....so beautiful.......Lord, thank you........this regal vibrantly plumed bird is taking a walk/flit/stroll across the patio........distract this kid from the pain.........yup, it's good......it's so good to stop the mind and see the view..........to absorb the wonder and beauty ---- drink it all in.
pain is right here, it is not all of me. i know we all......each of us have struggles. pain, sleep issues, how to get up and out and go and do........i'm an infant .......in my own space, doing little.........a baby sparrow. wow, put a baby bonnet on me and call me self absorbed........yup. pain is right here. knock knock joke. knock knock. .......who's there? do we..........do we who? do we get a day off from this pain? do we? i vote yes.......i vote yes, please......w/cream & sugar on top.
a pain vent.....baby sparrow, you have more in you than this. i promise you do......maybe not today, but it is in you to feel the joy......to embrace peace. to reach out and to hang in there.......you are capable, you have God with you.......look at the long streaks of sunlight...the earth is radiant, glowing...rays of sunshine across the back yard.......how beautiful it is.....see, you CAN see.......so look child, drink it in.......pray and ........ baby girl go back to bed now. sleep.
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Awww, baby sparrow, you be as self-absorbed as you want, we love you. I know how this pain is restricting your enjoyment BUT you find the beauty in the wind, trees, cardinals, flowers. I love reading your journals, your style and personality come through. I\'d bring over lemonade and sit with you on your porch if closer. I wish that darned pain fairy would just leave you alone. We\'re all having WEIRD weather, and ours is a month early but we\'re supposed to get frost next week and could see snow SO, slow down peeps, still too early to be planting stuffs. You ARE capable! You are one of the most CAPABLE women I know. Soak in the radiant sunshine into your soul.....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, feels better huh? Love ya! xo
Oh. little baby sparrow....visualize a peaceful place where the weather is not to warm or too cold. A place where nothing hurts and you can dance in the sunshine. Until that time comes, sending you a gentle hug!