Pain, Day 3
Today I'm still in pain. The hips joined into the chorus today. I was sitting at work and it causing me pain, so I went home and took a Vicodin. It worked, but it's wearing off now. I have to try and get this done fast so I can lie down again. I don't want to have to take another Vicodin. I could always take another warm bath, though. I got 4 pounds of Epsom salts at the dollar store yesterday ($1 for 2 pounds) so I have a lot of them. I'm going to be going through them quick, though, if I don't get better soon. I don't want to have to go to work tomorrow and be in pain, but I don't think I have a choice. Geo is going to his dad's to help him clean out his garage, and so I would be alone. Being alone at home is boring, even if I do just stay on the computer all day. Besides, I've been doing a lot of good work for Tiffany and she's been great about accepting the help I've been giving her. She makes me feel good and complements me.
So work today was good. I got another bunch of things done off her tasks list, and even though I'm doing the easy stuff for the most part, I'm glad I could help her out. I was only there from 1 to 3:30, but I did manage to get a lot done. I just have to learn how to hit the keyboard with less force since my fingers are hurting. When I type fast, I tend to hit the keys hard. I just like the sound of the keys tapping. It makes me feel productive. I've been getting a lot done at work, but I'm just scared of making a bunch of mistakes and getting fired. I don't want to get Tiffany in trouble either. I know that sometimes I miss a step and so I don't know if that's a huge deal or not. I've been doing all the major things that I should be doing, so I don't think it's too much of a problem but I'm paranoid. I know today I messed up one of the letters so Tiffany fixed it. I just don't want to have her fixing everything for me, since I should be able to do it on my own.
I'm talking to my friend Anita now. I've been talking to her for the past couple of days and now I'm addicted to talking to her at night. It's nice to have someone to talk to, and now I have a couple of people who I can talk to at night. She's in Canada, so I have to talk to her on Skype. I wish I could talk to her on the phone, since I prefer being on the phone, but I don't have international calling on my phone. I guess talking on the computer isn't that bad. It's just harder for me to get comfortable. I'm glad I have my laptop so I can use it in bed. Otherwise I wouldn't be able to use the computer like I do now. I can lie in my bed on the heating pad and type with one hand. It's a pain in the butt to do that, but at least it's something. When I write my journal or do other things that require a lot of typing, I sit up with the heating pad.
Mood today was good... even though I was in pain I still felt okay. I didn't want to go to work today, but I did anyway. Once I was there I felt good, since I was helping out. I had my hair down and curly today because it looked nice when I got up. It was windy on my way to work, so it got a bit frizzy, but still looked okay. By the end of the day, though, it was a frizzball thanks to the humidity. I have to straighten it out again. Then it gets flat, but that's okay. I don't make a big deal out of my appearance. I brush my hair and stuff, but I don't put on makeup most of the time and all that. I just think it's too much of a hassle. That's why my hair is in a ponytail most of the time. When I first got my hair cut in December, I couldn't put it in a ponytail so I had to wear it down all the time. Now I can wear it in a ponytail, so I do that.
Food today was bad.. I was over my calories again. I don't think I need to worry about being ana any more. I think what I needed to do was eat lunch. I wasn't hungry for it, but I'm starting to get hungry for it now. The reason I went over my calories, though, is because Geo and I had a date at the Chinese buffet. I have some extra money this month since I don't have a lot of expenses, so I treated him. It was nice to get out of the house and chat with him for a while. He was actually talking, which is rare. He's not a big talker, but I am. We were just talking about how we wouldn't want to live with ourselves as roommates, but how we can stand each other lol. Just the way a marriage should be. It was a lot of fun, and I had good food and a good time. Yay!
So work today was good. I got another bunch of things done off her tasks list, and even though I'm doing the easy stuff for the most part, I'm glad I could help her out. I was only there from 1 to 3:30, but I did manage to get a lot done. I just have to learn how to hit the keyboard with less force since my fingers are hurting. When I type fast, I tend to hit the keys hard. I just like the sound of the keys tapping. It makes me feel productive. I've been getting a lot done at work, but I'm just scared of making a bunch of mistakes and getting fired. I don't want to get Tiffany in trouble either. I know that sometimes I miss a step and so I don't know if that's a huge deal or not. I've been doing all the major things that I should be doing, so I don't think it's too much of a problem but I'm paranoid. I know today I messed up one of the letters so Tiffany fixed it. I just don't want to have her fixing everything for me, since I should be able to do it on my own.
I'm talking to my friend Anita now. I've been talking to her for the past couple of days and now I'm addicted to talking to her at night. It's nice to have someone to talk to, and now I have a couple of people who I can talk to at night. She's in Canada, so I have to talk to her on Skype. I wish I could talk to her on the phone, since I prefer being on the phone, but I don't have international calling on my phone. I guess talking on the computer isn't that bad. It's just harder for me to get comfortable. I'm glad I have my laptop so I can use it in bed. Otherwise I wouldn't be able to use the computer like I do now. I can lie in my bed on the heating pad and type with one hand. It's a pain in the butt to do that, but at least it's something. When I write my journal or do other things that require a lot of typing, I sit up with the heating pad.
Mood today was good... even though I was in pain I still felt okay. I didn't want to go to work today, but I did anyway. Once I was there I felt good, since I was helping out. I had my hair down and curly today because it looked nice when I got up. It was windy on my way to work, so it got a bit frizzy, but still looked okay. By the end of the day, though, it was a frizzball thanks to the humidity. I have to straighten it out again. Then it gets flat, but that's okay. I don't make a big deal out of my appearance. I brush my hair and stuff, but I don't put on makeup most of the time and all that. I just think it's too much of a hassle. That's why my hair is in a ponytail most of the time. When I first got my hair cut in December, I couldn't put it in a ponytail so I had to wear it down all the time. Now I can wear it in a ponytail, so I do that.
Food today was bad.. I was over my calories again. I don't think I need to worry about being ana any more. I think what I needed to do was eat lunch. I wasn't hungry for it, but I'm starting to get hungry for it now. The reason I went over my calories, though, is because Geo and I had a date at the Chinese buffet. I have some extra money this month since I don't have a lot of expenses, so I treated him. It was nice to get out of the house and chat with him for a while. He was actually talking, which is rare. He's not a big talker, but I am. We were just talking about how we wouldn't want to live with ourselves as roommates, but how we can stand each other lol. Just the way a marriage should be. It was a lot of fun, and I had good food and a good time. Yay!
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Sorry to read that you are still having the joint pains. Did you get your meds refilled?
So glad your date with Geo was fun!
i wonder why you are having so much pain and that it is spreading? i am sorry to read this, being in pain can take total control over your life. as asked above, did uou get your meds? i think tiffany is so happy you are helping, even though you say what you are doing are small stuff, it takes a big load off her shoulders. yes, compliments are great, a big boost to our self esteem. so happy that you had a great date and that geo was talking, dont sweat the eating at the buffet, you had a good time and i know you will get back on track. hugsss