Pain and Misery

Having trouble with my knee today. Putting weight on it makes a shooting pain in it happen and I usually can handle pain but not this. It's like a 10/10 for pain. This makes me feel so frustrated. Sometimes on days like this I wish I could have a break but than I realize there is no break because there is no cure and I get so angry. I wish people could understand I just found out a year ago that I was born different. I've been pushed away and lied to by multiple people and specialists. Today is one of those days where I wish I knew how to accept my reality. I just can't stand this pain it hurts so much it makes me want to cry and it makes me want to throw something but than I remember I'm not supposed to run, Jump, or lift heavy objects and my body already feels like it's on fire. Sometimes I'm just so angry and so stuck and this is one of those days.