Pain

Can pain be labeled as aggregation. Is there a misunderstanding I gather from conversations or do I just forget and swing back into the same pain. I don't want trauma I don't expect lectures I don't need a father I'm 26 years old I can raise myself I don't need no more bullshit going on from back and forth so called love thats only going off of a moment's feeling that won't last long. It's loneliness maybe for me I dont know what it is for Antonio. I choose not to care to see today. Why he called two times back to back to check on me. After explaining he wanted no communication like does everybody go back on there word does know one say how they really feel anymore. Has everyone lost there minds beside me and my son. Thank God my daughter doesn't have to deal with this. He his the father of my daughter but we just ain't meant to be... Just venting. Sometimes love gets confused you look for someone else in another and your world tumbles down when they know the whole time. And they fall in love with you too. It's confusing and fucked up on my part but it wasn't intentional at first then it was then it wasn't. And now it's all over. I'm alone and only want my kids beside me.