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How to stay positive in a negative environement

reading.. i am trying to read and read... reading is like a theapist avaailbe for you 24hrs/7 days a week.. any time you click your fingers! he/she is there..

but sadly my reading is limited to online guide and help, articles, blogs.. etc... what i am not so good at is reading books.. and that's a way more advansed and sophisticated material that takes your through a joruney uncoveing each single puzzle along the way... and i really want to get into books more than i do now.. 

when i find a book that i like i becomeaddicted, i actually start carrying it wiht me everywhere to make sure i don't loose my chain of thoughts and follow it on properly.. but to have the patience and give a book my patience if i don't enjoy it right from the start, from first page, is something i am terrible at.. i need to change that somehow... 

today's mission is to find two books. one about emotional detachment, how to dance through the storm? how to smile on rainy days..  i spent my life focusing more on other's negativity and misery and go caught in dilemmas that shouldnt have concerned me... now i want to turn page and say good bye to that..... no more dramas! no more allowing anyone to force me react to their behaviours.. their behaviours and actions should be their lives and they should deal with it.. my reaction, i want it to be calm, happy, smiley, collected, strong... focused!!! ..... and if i have a word of advise to give i want to say it calmly when i am ready, while remain emotionally detached. I want to learn have a poker face and feel poker face in my heart!!.. my heart should not be the residence of other's miserable actions!... it should be my respected temple... it's not for everyone to toy or destroy..  this is really important if want to change my life and have a happier future.