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It's a new day.. and sun is out here...

I had insomnia, then i slept and woke up at 5am till 7am, struggled with unpleasent thoughts, then slept again.. and this morning i feel fine.. thank God! .. i was dreading that yestetday's reunion with my brother, although a happy event, but tinited with reminders of the disappoints i felt for 4 years when he chose to stop talking to me, for nothing obvious reason other than stubborness and egoism.. i thought i would wake up and the negative memories would linger for longer, ruining my day.. but this morning im ok... im not thinking about the negative and forcusing on making today a good day. What happened happened and it is in the past.. i have to detach from the past if i am to move on.. 

I will have to excerise today , drink a lot of water.. pray a bit..(im not good at it lately), but i need to dig deep and heal my defeated soul... i still have hopes there is still a chance to do that.

Will write again before bed hopefully .. hold myself accountable and check in.

I must read some positive stuff too, maybe do some of these humorous personality quizzes and have a laugh too... anything that can help and keep the brain in a happy plays for longer