Owning my story....part 2

...I'm somewhere between the ages of 4-5, not in school.  I'm aware that our neighbor's window faces our windows and the houses are not too far apart.  He's tell me that he has cupcakes and wants to know if I want to eat one with him
....I'm hungry - I'm always hungry - I go to bed at night...hungry
....I know to get one of his cupcakes I have to 'play his game' and I don't want to play...but....I'm hungry
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....I ate the cupcake....
 
Why, as an adult, do I still feel so much shame - I didn't prey on anyone yet I feel the shame...even now...at age 51...
....more memories to come - owning my story....