Ownership
I was questioning my own sense of weakness and feeling feckless this morning. I needed to pull myself
out of the hole I was in and start the day...I was in bed and I was thinking about the issue of commitment for myself which is a very frightening topic for me as I am not so strong and my sense of self is labile. I fear making a mistake...I often think of putting myself somewhere, where I will be safe, like the monastery or even a seniors’ board and care.... and that is fraught with all kinds of misgivings and a sense of resignation that I am lost to life.
But then I was inspired to own my life -
This morning my inspiration is to keep at taking care of life and ownership of life even if it is imperfect.
It is MY ship of fools I'm traveling in and we need to keep on keeping on in life. That ownership gives me a sense of love and also a sense of agency and a sense of reasonability about things. I can predict what I can handle and manage
and indeed it doesn't have to be perfect to be worthy.
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Hola Mark,
Nobody’s perfect, even people who act like they are.
I’m FOR SURE not perfect if you’ve noticed lol
But to be you are ‘perfectly Mark’ (ain’t no one else’s gonna fill those shoes) & I think you’re an awesome person & I hope you remember how cool you are when you are having a hard time, I for real mean that
*ps I’ll be around today if you need someone to talk to, even if it’s just to shoot the breeze, always feel free to pm me
Gentle hug to you & Blue <3
thanks lil missy! SO appreciate it!
And I know I have a lot to be grateful for and for how I am, I have a beautiful life. Just sometimes I need to bolster my spirit and this journal helped.