Overwhelmed

I find myself being overwhelmed by everything, no job - several applications in the pipeline but with no real expectation of any success, no connection to my wife and family, when I was in prison I spoke to my wife once a fortnight, and heard a bit of what the children got up to, now I don't hear anything. I have a divorce coming and it hurts so much. I saw a photo of the children on the computer and burst into tears. I haven't seen them for 13 months. No words describe the pain. Mum remains difficult, I did a couple of jobs this morning and all she could do was to point out how she'd have done it different. I got a yogurt to eat and she criticised my yogurt eating - if only I was joking. I cleaned a sink and there she said it was quite good, praise indeed, but wondered why the word quite appeared.

The pain is just unbearable. It doesn't go away.