over the depression now, I think

It's been hard, but I'm better. I am going to let go of Lionel. I love him, but being stuck on him hurts. He doesn't want me. If he is my husband, then God will bring us together. I trust that. I want to be patient and work on myself. Also, I am going to enjoy being single while I can. I am a person that is very loyal, and I enjoy and take pride in commitments. However, the world doesn't always go the way we want, and I need to learn to move on and think about myself. I always put others before me....that can be good....but it hurt me sometimes. I can be kind without sabotaging my own life! So I am working on me and my relationship with God! I hope God brings my husband into my life soon though....and I hope we can start working on trust and our relationship :)
I was hurting this whole time. My heart keeps hurting, but I asked God to take it away, and for right now, it's better. My heart has calmed down. I will continue to talk to God and I will continue to ask Him to comfort my heart. And I hope I wont have to hurt anymore. I can handle small little disappointments that happens from time to time, but the things that are too painful, too unfair, and that tries to break you...those things, I hope I neve have to feel again! It's all in God's hands :D