out of the blue and sinking lower

Just when I thought things couldn't get any worse my boyfriend called me saying he had been arrested. Apparently he had a warrant out for his arrest downstate that the cop had told him a long time ago was done and taken care of and there would be no charges. So they transported him downstate and I can't afford his bond, I don't have a car to even go see  him. He's facing up to 15 years! And he's so stubborn that he won't plea he wants a trial. He'll be in jail for a few months, this is our first christmas together and now it was all taken away. He lost both of his jobs and he was our only source of income because i'm so sick. So I had to go back to work when i'm not supposed to. I have no idea how i'm gonna make rent. It's all a mess. I love him and i'm worried about  him but emotionally and physically I can't deal with this. I ended up taking 3 klonopins last night just so that I could sleep. Ive been throwing up all day long and I couldn't go home because somehow I have to pay all these bills. It costs $10 each time he calls so i'm going to have to tell him he can't call everyday which is gonna be tough for both of us. I don't know whether to hang on and stick in there with him. He was finally a guy I could see myself settling with, he was so sweet to me. He had told me about this incident before, it happened months before we were even together so it's not like I was blindsided about the charges but just the fact that it was supposed to have been taken care of. So now he's 3 hours away and I can't help him. I could lose him forever. I could feel myself getting lower before this now I don't know if I can get back up. I want to reach for the whiskey bottle so bad but I know once I do that i'll reach for the klonopins to numb my pain even more. I just wonder how much longer God is going to keep testing my faith and patience, 3 years is enough.