out of the bed?!?

I finally got out of the bed. Yeah I've been in the bed for a while. I'm tired and tired. I have no energy. I made myself move and shower today. I have to look for work and clean. Really don't want to but I know that I have to.....for the children. Thank God for them for that sake. I know that I wouldn't move other than that. I have 20 minutes more on this computer today. I have look for work from 830am to 1140am and that's my day so far..... I often think about my old job and what I would be doing right now. What a blow to the esteem!!!!!! I try not to throw a pity party , but WOW!!!!! I have cramps and just want to lay down and suffer. Must keep moving!!!!!!! Think positive!! OAN I went to chruch Sunday, it was nice. The message was running a race with God. Very moving. But I came home and got back in the bed. I know that was not good. I'm not lazy, just wiped out!!! I called about my medical insurance through the state. I need my meds and the kids need dental attention soon. I trying to make lemonade out the lemons.LOL.