Out of the art and into the new

Last night I disolved myself of the Denver Art Museum for several reasons that I dont want to state again. This morning I went to the Museum of Nature and Science and wrote my paper, a full page sinle-spaced something that Lucy said that I didn't need to do... just a single page double-spaced so I feel good about getting my paper done. I feel somewhat dad about leaving the DAM but I know it needed to happen. I enjoy my time in school and at the Museum of Nature and Science. I know that I need a job and I am still searching, there are just so many things that I refuse to do. So maybe it is time that I get out of my comfort zone. Speaking about the comfort zone last night I went out for dinner and drinks with mom and aunt Terri I had a manhatten and a whisky sour then wen I got home I drandk a good deal of french wine. That made me wake up every few hours so dizzy and disoriented I didn't know if I was going to have to call in sick today, but when I woke up this morning I felt good. So I came to the museum early and wrote my paper in the west atrium. Then when I was ready I went to the info-desk and started to work really early, I think that it might be a long day. It's supposed to rain again like yesterday when it rained hard. I love the rain. I am now over two thousand dollars in credit card debt and I have no job to try to dig myself out. I have nothing. This is what is depressing and anxious is the fact that I have no money and no job I am a broke loser and I hate it. I want to change this but I don't know how. I am also thinking that I want to move back in with my mother. I think that it might be a pain in the ass but I also think that it might hep me throught all that I am going through right now. I shouldn't think about that though, I am at dad's house and I like it there. I am kinda tired and I know that this day is going to be a long one. I don't know what I am going to do after volunteering. OH yes I have to read for my class. I want to go to Panara Bread to have chicken noodle soup in a sourdough bread bowl. Well I want to go look at some chats maybe I'll write later.