Ordinary day

Yesterday went with kelly to target thats when my cell phone rang it was the hemotologist he told me i need to see him right away i asked whats wrong he said my levels.  so i told him id be there after im done with target so kelly picked up items for her new house while i just browsed.  I bought a couple of odds and ends after that we paid for our Items and I asked kelly if she could take me to the hemotologist she aid ok and why I told her its an emergency about myb12 levels.  She rushed me there I got another hct done thats when i got more bad news.  the doctor toldme my b12 levels are to low and unstable I need to go to the ER.  I dont like hospitals he says i need intensive treatment.  Now my moms in the hospital for heart attack Im next for vitamin b12 deficiency thats unstable Im not going.  I been battling this for two years  now it got worse.  whats the sense I might die even if i go to the hospital i might die.  Its been almost a week not even since i had my last hct done now it got too severe Im not going I know what brookhaven hospital is like my mom almost die there.  I have been doing everything i was told to do except one thing preventing stress I cannot be under stress it makes it worse Argh I may change my mind and go but the fear of losing my man because Im sick I know my life is gonna have a tragic ending and who will watch the dogs and parrot.  Im gonna think it through.  ill give you guys the heads up if i decide to go.

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im praying for you .