ongoing
I flirt with going my own direction at times in terms of career and work but it seems I am very fearful of relying
on my own faculty to carry me through and support me in this kind of effort... and so I stay the course and just live
life as I am - my place, my usual thing... worry about the future.
Just thoughts.
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I doesn't know but I does believe you are smart enough to have learned it takes more than personal will power to support any kind of effort. Even when you are working for yourself and/or God, ya still at least need clients.
Just thoughts.
in person I worry that I am not so 'constant' in my 'interpersonality' - I am learning and coming to appreciate the people in my life AND WORK more and more and my ability to get along and get the job done even though I have really disruptive forces within me. I seem to better be able to kick those forces aside.
I am hosting my brother and his dog this week which has been really great and has shaken up my household in a good way. I may not be so great at social things consistently but I decided to submit a volunteer application to a couple local museums today.
I know I have been derailed from a linear path in my career life but maybe I can recoup it a little and do some more stuff.
I seem to have the will .....but I fear my persona might be ... All I can do is keep at it.