one thirty am.

hey y'all,

it's late.  i finally got up and did chores.  mail, trash, stuff.  even vacuumed the bedroom and put a fresh comforter on the bed.  things that make the nest nice.

mia has a new trick......she steals my bendy straws, leaving me strawless.  that girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  i find them everywhere.  then this morning i found a piece of hard candy in one of my slippers.  thank God it was NOT a bug.

i feel bad, being this way lately has me off as their pet mom,  i'm just not right, but i see me trying.  tiny little gold stars for that.  sometimes that is all we got. a little bit of try.

i'm crying less.  that's got to count for better.  i didn't tell y'all but i decided to white knuckle it off the prednisone and i'm sure that's what sent the little that was left of me into the dumper.  getting that crud out of my system was rough, but i can breathe better.  other things are better......and some things are worse.  it's all about trade offs.  but i hope to avoid prednisone for the rest of my life. it's dangerous stuff.  now i know ......please don't let me forget.

i picked out clothes for tomorrow.  to wear to sara's.  think i'll take a shower before going back to bed.  i really had to push to do the stuff i just did.   mentally i feel a lot better.  when things are undone i feel a weight on my shoulders and this ongoing internal nagging. 

if i keep things on track it helps me function better sick.  right now my closet shows how funky and wonky i've been.  it's a mess.  shows why i can't find what i want when i want.  wish i felt better enough to tidy it up.  maybe this sounds silly......having the tidy closet urge.......but with brain fog and pain i get frustrated easily.  if i work my in home organizational system then things are smoother for me.  wow, when i read that last sentence back i think what a total nerdy dorky girl i am.

i guess i am pretty dorky......i keep my car keys in the same place every day.  i come in, put groceries on the counter and then before anything else i put my car keys in this round wooden box.  saves me from losing them or so i believe. 

i ordered the cuddly chicken.  i finally decided on the 40 cm size.......around 16"........so glad i looked up how many inches 60 cm is.....that is the one i almost ordered, then realized it was almost 24".  i don't need a two foot huggable chicken.  lol.......that's not a sentence you see everyday.......

......why can't i copy and paste a picture of the chicken in my journal?  doggone it anyway.......well blewy.

time to hit the showers and try to sleep.  i slept most of the day and now my body is all mixed up.  but i'll be good and lie there quietly.......cause that is what i'm best at.  testing mattresses.........night night!