one step forward and two steps back

Its been just over a week since I wrote an entry. Feeling that I am sick of people thinking that they need to know everything about my relationship breakdown. Too much familiarity...none of their business...I have also applied for a new job as my current pharmacy has too much heavy lifting and Its doing damage to my health...to many heavy boxes of gift lines to lift and they stack boxes over head height and its hurting my neck and back. We are supposed to be a pharmacy not a gift shop...accident waiting to happen...we have no direction from management either...frustrating...need a fresh start in a place where no one knows me and I can keep the health I have built back up after having headaches from my neck muscles seizing up.If no one knows what's happened in my private life it may be easier...so I applied for a new job. I still think about him and am currently away with my Mum...I know I can never forgive and I make no excuses for what he's done...I don't hate him but I don't like how he went about it...won't forgive..
I was looking forward to my birthday which is in a couple of days and christmas spending it with him...now I feel strange but at least I found out now what he is like...trying not to focus on feeling down..I will be okay is becoming my mantra