One More Week...
One more week and I will have finished my C25K! I did my 2.75 mile walk today, albeit with a couple stops here and there to rest and drink some Gatorade (it's hard to drink and walk at the same time for me). I sat down twice, but I'm determined when I do my 5K next week to do it without sitting down. I sat for less than a minute each time. I'm working on getting stronger! I also have to go to see the guy for volunteering on Monday morning, so I have to get to bed early tonight so I can try and wake up early tomorrow. Geo has to go get his cholesterol checked again on Monday so we can wake up and get it done when I get back from seeing the volunteer guy, that or depending on how early I wake up we can do it beforehand. I think I'm going to shoot for Geo getting it done first, that way I get a ride to the clinic. It's close, but I don't like showing up there all sweaty. I will do my walk when I'm done (Monday I do 40 minutes, any distance and Wednesday I do 30 mins, then Friday I do my 5K) so I will bring my backpack with some food and clothes to change into in it.
Today I was kinda paranoid again for some unknown reason. I woke up not feeling well mentally and let Geo go over his dad's to check on the dogs by himself. When he didn't show up for an hour later, I called his cell phone worried about him. I didn't know if something bad had happened to him, I was running through every paranoid thought in my head that could have possibly happened (car accident, even thinking he got mad and killed himself) and just not well. When Geo got home, I decided I really needed to go for my walk and I did, and I felt better when it was done. I actually felt better about a half mile into it, but I was going for the whole 2.75 miles, so I was going for it all. I don't know what brought on the paranoia... I am kinda on my period which sometimes makes me paranoid, but it's really light so I thought that the mood swings would be light too. Sorry again for the TMI, but it's just part of what is going on with me.
I got a lot of sleep today... I got about 11 hours last night and a late nap today (3 hours). Ann, I know you were wondering, I have always needed a lot of sleep. When I was a kid, I needed about 10 hours, and it hasn't changed much since. I get times (like when I'm in the hospital or something has changed drastically) where I don't need as much sleep for a short time, but then I go back and sleep for a ton after that. Sometimes when I go to LA I get like that, or with my mom. I call it "hospital mode" since it happens mostly when I'm in the hospital. I think it's the drastic change in my environment that makes it happen. I feel okay for the first couple days, and then I start feeling it more and more as time goes on. Also, not getting enough sleep can cause me to go hypomanic or manic and kick in the bipolar part of my disorders. So sleep is something very important to me, and that's why I sleep so much and track how much I sleep every day. I know BlueToes said I feel like crap when I get more than 10 hours of sleep, but I get that every day lol. When I get less than 10 hours and feel good is when I need to take note that I'm possibly going hypomanic.
Food today- I'm under on my calories. I thought that having a Checkerburger would put me over the calories I needed for the day, but it didn't. I'm still kinda hungry, so I might go eat some more salad. It seems that all I have been eating is salad, but I'm liking it so I don't see it as a problem. Although I think a day of underindulgence is okay after the days of overindulgence I've had. I weigh tomorrow, and I expect to be up. I don't know by how much, but we will see. I will be disappointed, but it's to be expected with how badly I've been eating lately. Having a car is killer on the diet I've found out, since we can go at the drop of a hat and get whatever bad food we want and not have to walk anywhere. I was stressed today, as evident by the paranoia attack. I tried relaxing, but I needed to go for my walk to really get it under control and feel better.
Today I was kinda paranoid again for some unknown reason. I woke up not feeling well mentally and let Geo go over his dad's to check on the dogs by himself. When he didn't show up for an hour later, I called his cell phone worried about him. I didn't know if something bad had happened to him, I was running through every paranoid thought in my head that could have possibly happened (car accident, even thinking he got mad and killed himself) and just not well. When Geo got home, I decided I really needed to go for my walk and I did, and I felt better when it was done. I actually felt better about a half mile into it, but I was going for the whole 2.75 miles, so I was going for it all. I don't know what brought on the paranoia... I am kinda on my period which sometimes makes me paranoid, but it's really light so I thought that the mood swings would be light too. Sorry again for the TMI, but it's just part of what is going on with me.
I got a lot of sleep today... I got about 11 hours last night and a late nap today (3 hours). Ann, I know you were wondering, I have always needed a lot of sleep. When I was a kid, I needed about 10 hours, and it hasn't changed much since. I get times (like when I'm in the hospital or something has changed drastically) where I don't need as much sleep for a short time, but then I go back and sleep for a ton after that. Sometimes when I go to LA I get like that, or with my mom. I call it "hospital mode" since it happens mostly when I'm in the hospital. I think it's the drastic change in my environment that makes it happen. I feel okay for the first couple days, and then I start feeling it more and more as time goes on. Also, not getting enough sleep can cause me to go hypomanic or manic and kick in the bipolar part of my disorders. So sleep is something very important to me, and that's why I sleep so much and track how much I sleep every day. I know BlueToes said I feel like crap when I get more than 10 hours of sleep, but I get that every day lol. When I get less than 10 hours and feel good is when I need to take note that I'm possibly going hypomanic.
Food today- I'm under on my calories. I thought that having a Checkerburger would put me over the calories I needed for the day, but it didn't. I'm still kinda hungry, so I might go eat some more salad. It seems that all I have been eating is salad, but I'm liking it so I don't see it as a problem. Although I think a day of underindulgence is okay after the days of overindulgence I've had. I weigh tomorrow, and I expect to be up. I don't know by how much, but we will see. I will be disappointed, but it's to be expected with how badly I've been eating lately. Having a car is killer on the diet I've found out, since we can go at the drop of a hat and get whatever bad food we want and not have to walk anywhere. I was stressed today, as evident by the paranoia attack. I tried relaxing, but I needed to go for my walk to really get it under control and feel better.
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You got your 2.75 miles in and now the next big step is the 5K, good going! you should be proud of your accomplishment thus far. I know you will make the rest of it just fine as well. You mentioned you got 13 hours sleep all total and how you felt paranoid, see, more then 10 hours, you feel crappy, I\'m telling you, you gotta watch that sleep stuff. Have a graat day, Michael.
Larrissa ive been gone few days since my daughter had her baby but trying to go back and catch up with friends on here.... thats so great youre doing awesome on your walking! I really need to do the same i might feel better... cant wait to get back to the gym! I totally understand about that \"paranoid thinking\" of which ive never looked at it as paranoid but yet i hide it from people so i know my thinking isnt right... like imagined things that could happen... obsessive worrying about it.... what makes it go from just normal worrys to being classified as paranoid? Its so hard to deal with sometimes. I havnt done so good on my eating plan either the last 4 days since i was at the hospital it was just so easy to use the excuse that i was stressed out so i just didnt eat... and to top it off i went about 60 hours without sleep ughhh i think its gonna take me a long time to get back to any kind of normal... huggggzzz
thanks larrissa for explaining your slleep patterns. i too take a nap in the afternnoon, i dont do well on less then 9 hours. it is fantastic you are going to be doing the 5k, you are doing so great!!! you know, i have found exercise, any kind, really helps me when im anxious, hyper, just not feeling great, i feel much better after. what you weigh today isnt important, its not letting it be \"easy\" since you have a car to use to get junk food. keep up with your normal meal plan as much as posible. hgs