One more week
I feel addicted to the feeling that pot and alcohol give me when I use them in excess. I am going to try to stop this usage especially before classes begin. I am afraid that I am not going to get that job with Samantha the dean of students. I am hoping that there is no sweeping me under the rug or pushing me away, I think that I would fit well with that group and that is the type of work i want to do right now and what I am really good at. I also don't want to let my parents down and tell them that this went wrong... again. But, I still do have trust fro Sam and I think that she promised me a position at the beginning of the fall semester at the latest.
I am always so tired. It's hard to find a time anymore where I am truly rested and ready to go. I wish there was a different way. My body aches and most of the time I sweat when I sleep so trying to sleep is uncomfortable. Throwing up is thankfully not as frequent as it was recently but it is still here, most always in the evening and night and nausea in the afternoons and evenings. I keep a thoughtful outlook for my future join into education as a psychologist. Which will make me a happy and hopefully a successful person. I suppose we will see what really happens in even the next few weeks. It will be a week from today that I will begin Fall classes. I think that I am getting somewhat nervous about starting classes and trying to finnish my college days and begin career. Hopefully, someday sooner than I think I'll Be a doctor!!
Katie came by today and dropped off a thank you card to me and my mom for the gifts that we gave her for her birthday last weekend. That was thoughtful of her and even after Rachael didn't give me a thank you card for the gift I gave her for her birthday. With a lll of this drama going on because of birthdays, I am just left to guess what is going to happen when my birthday rolls around? I can only hope that there is no drama unfolding.
I am going to watch a movie and then go to the store for some stuff.
Goodnight moon.
I am always so tired. It's hard to find a time anymore where I am truly rested and ready to go. I wish there was a different way. My body aches and most of the time I sweat when I sleep so trying to sleep is uncomfortable. Throwing up is thankfully not as frequent as it was recently but it is still here, most always in the evening and night and nausea in the afternoons and evenings. I keep a thoughtful outlook for my future join into education as a psychologist. Which will make me a happy and hopefully a successful person. I suppose we will see what really happens in even the next few weeks. It will be a week from today that I will begin Fall classes. I think that I am getting somewhat nervous about starting classes and trying to finnish my college days and begin career. Hopefully, someday sooner than I think I'll Be a doctor!!
Katie came by today and dropped off a thank you card to me and my mom for the gifts that we gave her for her birthday last weekend. That was thoughtful of her and even after Rachael didn't give me a thank you card for the gift I gave her for her birthday. With a lll of this drama going on because of birthdays, I am just left to guess what is going to happen when my birthday rolls around? I can only hope that there is no drama unfolding.
I am going to watch a movie and then go to the store for some stuff.
Goodnight moon.
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