One month
My last drink was Dec. 12.
I don't have to label myself. Okay, I'm an alcoholic. My stories won't make the Big Book. It's enough that I don't want to ever have another hangover. I know it's hard for me to stop drinking before it's too late. It takes about a 6 pack for me to feel it the next day. But on a typical Friday or Saturday, I'll have 12-18. I know I'll feel like shit the next day. But I drink it anyway. That's a bit out of control. I've been pretty good about drinking and driving in recent years. I know I've been over the limit a few times, but not so drunk I felt like I couldn't drive. However, over the limit is enough to fuck up a life. Mine, or God forbid, somebody else's. So that's enough reason to quit too. No, I've never been in rehab. I don't black out. I have had times when I wasn't sure and I went out to the driveway to see if there were any dents I didn't remember. Nothing yet. So, I could be worse. But it's enough to want to stop. I've been fortunate not to have worse problems.
If I feel guilty about anything, it's about my son. He watched me growing up, drinking whatever I want. He drinks now. He's had 1 DUI and another close call. I mailed him the Big Book. I know he went to 1 AA meeting. Maybe that's a seed. I just don't want him to fuck up his life because of alcohol.
I don't have to label myself. Okay, I'm an alcoholic. My stories won't make the Big Book. It's enough that I don't want to ever have another hangover. I know it's hard for me to stop drinking before it's too late. It takes about a 6 pack for me to feel it the next day. But on a typical Friday or Saturday, I'll have 12-18. I know I'll feel like shit the next day. But I drink it anyway. That's a bit out of control. I've been pretty good about drinking and driving in recent years. I know I've been over the limit a few times, but not so drunk I felt like I couldn't drive. However, over the limit is enough to fuck up a life. Mine, or God forbid, somebody else's. So that's enough reason to quit too. No, I've never been in rehab. I don't black out. I have had times when I wasn't sure and I went out to the driveway to see if there were any dents I didn't remember. Nothing yet. So, I could be worse. But it's enough to want to stop. I've been fortunate not to have worse problems.
If I feel guilty about anything, it's about my son. He watched me growing up, drinking whatever I want. He drinks now. He's had 1 DUI and another close call. I mailed him the Big Book. I know he went to 1 AA meeting. Maybe that's a seed. I just don't want him to fuck up his life because of alcohol.
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