Okay, a little bugged out

So today was a great day with my friends and I'm really happy I got a chance to see them.  It feels a bit like I haven't left yet except that people told me I was missed which was really sweet.   My mom is coming to my pdoc appt on wed and I definately freaking out about that.  I told my pdoc last week that I wanted to know about partial hospitalization programs and I kinda still do but my Mom is a huge obstacle to that.  She will freak out about it and get all worried.  When my mom gets worried she totally freaks out.  She will either lock me in the house or start rationing my meds or checking on me 24/7.  It really just makes everything worse.  I end up spending a ton of time making sure she's okay with me not being okay.  Which in turn, makes me angry and feel worse.   BAsically, I spend my time faking that everything is fine around my Mom.  I DO feel a lot better this week, but I'm still having some problems adjusting.  I dunno.  Obviously I very anxious about Wed.  I kinda feel like its gonna be a wasted pdoc appointment right when I really need one.   Just venting here.  Mostly though I"m okay.