ok today so far

I got up and noticed that it's actually sunny today. What a nice break from the doom and gloom weather we've been having - I think the sun affects my mood as I don't feel so bad today.
A little anxious but lowgrade.
I made it through my walk with my fiance yesterday and it wasn't so bad. I think it helped that it was during the day. I am hopeful about today's walk since it's sunny out.
I am beginning to wonder if I'm stuck. I got something in the mail from a client yesterday and my fiance asked if I thought I'd be back to work this week. I got quiet and just didn't answer. Thinking about work still makes me feel pretty bad. To be fair, it was a perfectly reasonable question and he didn't press me on it when he saw how upset it made me. He suggested I return the work that I haven't been able to finish to the client, but that would just make me feel like I've failed. I've been thinking that I would get better enough to be able to go back to work at some point. I don't want to think that I just won't be able to.
I don't know. I feel like I am waiting. Waiting to figure out if the wall I have up against going back to work will come down bit by bit with time.