ok, still worried

well, its about 9:30 pm. he is still at work. thats a good sign. i feel so bad for him. if he could find his way, obviously, im no help. just still so upset about all this i cant think of anything else. my poor baby i know he is 24 yrs old, but he is not a mature 24 yr old man. that is alot my fault. i never realy tought him how sto be in social situattions wene he was youg cause i was so messed up. plus ive allways been a little afraid that he would bolt if i was harsh on him, so i was so easy on him. he pretty much gave both my kids what they wanted, no matter how many jobs i had to have. big mistake.my kids have had to overcome many absticles in there lives. j my oldest just made his own way with no help from me. i lucked out with him. youngest son, tottaly differentr story. its been a war since day one with him. i never spankd my kids like i was . thought it would make them resentfull of me like i was to my parents. i would allways run away... oh well, at leaste hes not in jail, strung out on hard drugs, or god forbide dead. but thats pretty much all i can say for myself... i was a terrrible mother. but that is in the past. both my boys are very kind hearted and great men. mk just has to fit in somewere, he is starting to get very sinacle and jaded. i never know what hes thinking... ok, had to get that out of me. moore tommorow night....