ok so far

I did a year to date on my gas bill. Oh my. No kidding 3100.OO!! And the rate was just locked in for this coming season at .75 cents higher. That is better than some rates. I get my propane from the electric company. It is usually a buck cheaper a gallon than other companies. And there are all these contracts, deals, ways it has to be done. I like it plain and simple. Pay as you go. Like all other utilities each 30 days. So, without a job right now, I really am worried. There are a few things I can nail down for employment but I want the job that has me on hold. I will give them until the first week of August. Unemployment will be running out so something needs to get in the works. I was not concerned like this 20 years ago. Had more bills and more responsibility back then too. What is up?? Maybe I wore myself out.  It is hard not to feel a little discouraged right now. I just can not get motivated to do much of anything. I know one day it will seem that there was all this time and I did nothing to take advantage. Well, I am tired. Like, burned out. Need a change to my lack of job and no money to cover what I owe. At least I have a clue to what is bugging me. Hope you are all having  a good weekend. Write when you can Cheers~