ok, better now

well, im better now. took half a xanex, now i can type and concentraite. i so whish i didnt have to be so addicted to these but i am and im a little old to try to quit anything. it works for me so there yuou have it. guess ill have to deal whith these things someday, but not today. just want to stop shacking so bad. i know ill never be anything like normal, thats ok, just want to feel normal someday maybe, dont have much hope of that. im realy down today, so glad mks gone so i can get some of this crap out of me. hard to type wene your jonesing for a pill. ok, thats it for now. will try later. maybe today, ill clean house, ya right, well its a good thought. going to try and do some streches, im so fat now, i cant hardly do anything anymoore. at least i am finnaly getting a checkup on wed. oh boy, wait till they get alode of me. they will deffenatly have something to talk about at the water cooler or wereever they talk. ok, by again