Oh My God

I think I am finally at my breaking point.  My brother annoucned he and his wife were having their second child. Their first child is only 18 months old and she is already 8 weeks along. I actually felt the floor fall out beneathe me. I can't breathe and all I want to do it sleep. My brother actually told my mom they were hoping I would get pregnant first but I was taking so long... I think I just want to scream every single profanity I can think of at this point. I have had it. This was it for me. The final straw.  All I can do it cry. I have been crying for hours. My brain can't wrap around this at all.  They are shipping their first child off to day care and now they are having another one? I don't get it. WHY!!!???