oh G-d, what happened?

today is 24 October 2008my jessy passed away on 24 April 2008 today is 6 monthsit feels like it was yesterday - that dreaded trip to the cemetaryit felt like such a long drive..... .... almost like i JUST got home im not really depressedbut i dont want to see people, make conversationi just dont know i just think of my jessy,her life, her joy, our love,and i just think Oh my G-d, what happened to us?!!