Num

its been a while since I have felt so Num. Death has been on my mind. Life is so crazy, a few years ago I was on here because I was scared that I wasn't doing enough in life and that depressed me and now I feel so overwhelmed with everything that I have going on I'm starting to feel depressed again. I feel like I'm losing it. I have so much chest pain everyday and the doctors say it just anxiety and give me medics that does not help. I guess I am just going to take it day by day.