Now What?...Why are you asking me? I just live here.

Well I have stopped taking Celexa.  My kidneys were still hurting so on Monday so I called the advice line and they spoke to a doctor and he told me to stop taking it.  Since I had only been taking it for a week and at such a low dose I could just stop taking it.I had hoped that would be the end of my kidney pain but today it is back it is intermittant like it was before but I find it unnerving that it is back at all.  The pain is on my left side of my lower back.  Now I have heard that your kidneys are actually closer to your ribs then your hunches so maybe it is not my kidneys but why only one side then?  I also thought I might be dehydradated so I have been trying to drink more water.  I am trying to be logical about the whole thing and not freak out but of course cancer has already crossed my mind.  I hate my brain sometimes!I have also been having more neck/head pain here the last couple of days it feels like a nerve/vein pain which makes me think anueurysm/heart attack.  The pain comes randomly but it also happens sometimes when I stand and seems to pulsate in time with my heartbeat, which is worrying.  But once again I am trying to maintain and think logically.  Doing the same with my heart.  At least once or twice a day it will start to beat really hard.  Not especially fast it just speeds up a little and it feels like it is working twice as hard.  So I have many things in which I can freak out about but I am trying not to.  On a positive note my acid reflux is better which is good considering my doctor never called or wrote me back and apparently will not be back until mid-july.  I could try to track down another doc but I just want to feel better and not have to go to a doctor.I need help but I don't want to go to the doctor anymore.  I really don't I just want to be better and think about normal things again.  I am tired (which also worries me) and just all done with health anxiety.  What's real and what's not?  What should I be concerned about and what is all in my head?  I don't know.  I honestly don't anymore